When I was a child, parents used to appreciate me for my academic excellence among siblings and I used to get appreciation in the form of chocolates and various gifts.
As time passes, competition increased from siblings to friends and so on and this increment never faced recession. When I passed out school, then the real competition felt among thousands or lacs of students struggling to get admission in some college or the other. Now, that was the real competition, and that make me come out from my comfort zone.
My fate took me to an Engineering college and this was considered as my initiative to took the path less traveled rather never traveled before (no one in my grannies family did engineering or medical science). Now, as an intelligent student, I passed my engineering degree with Honors and became hero and an inspiration to all the kids in the family.
Sometimes, it felt good to be an idol. But when I used to peep out and give the glances to outer world, that used to fright me with constantly increasing competition. But I decided to stand on a position where I could say, "Hey fear, I've defeated you, you're nowhere in my mind or heart. Now you're a loser in front of me" and I went on.
I gave GATE to continue my further studies and with God's grace, was able to qualify on first attempt itself. Friends also started considering me as intelligent friend of theirs. And now when I'm trying to get admission with 7000 All India Rank, I feel more pity that I won't be able to get any of the top ranking institute. This is like you are trying to get a trophy always, but what you get is consolation prize.
I know, everyone says, try harder, you've potential, you can do this, blah blah. But how can one do something beyond their potential. Deeply sad with this truth.
As time passes, competition increased from siblings to friends and so on and this increment never faced recession. When I passed out school, then the real competition felt among thousands or lacs of students struggling to get admission in some college or the other. Now, that was the real competition, and that make me come out from my comfort zone.
My fate took me to an Engineering college and this was considered as my initiative to took the path less traveled rather never traveled before (no one in my grannies family did engineering or medical science). Now, as an intelligent student, I passed my engineering degree with Honors and became hero and an inspiration to all the kids in the family.
Sometimes, it felt good to be an idol. But when I used to peep out and give the glances to outer world, that used to fright me with constantly increasing competition. But I decided to stand on a position where I could say, "Hey fear, I've defeated you, you're nowhere in my mind or heart. Now you're a loser in front of me" and I went on.
I gave GATE to continue my further studies and with God's grace, was able to qualify on first attempt itself. Friends also started considering me as intelligent friend of theirs. And now when I'm trying to get admission with 7000 All India Rank, I feel more pity that I won't be able to get any of the top ranking institute. This is like you are trying to get a trophy always, but what you get is consolation prize.
I know, everyone says, try harder, you've potential, you can do this, blah blah. But how can one do something beyond their potential. Deeply sad with this truth.
